Composing

So. Occasionally I have these flashes of moments where I consider myself to be musically inclined enough to try my hand at choral composition. It may be the single most frustrating experience I can put myself through. I don't know whether I don't know enough, or whether I simply can't figure out the massive puzzle that's comprised of the ideas in my head and the notes to go on the page. It's all there, but it won't come out, and it won't stay the same, and it won't flow the same way twice, and I'm going nuts.

This happens to me once a month or so. It's like musical menstruation. Something that once had potential to be created into something new and unique getting flushed away once it isn't developed. ...Of course... I keep all the little bits of music i manage to script. ...Hopefully none of you keep your tampons. That's pretty gross.

And for anyone commenting and doubting my masculinity-- I was only looking for a similar event that happened once a month. I suppose I could have used a full moon or something. But now that's niether here nor there, and if you doubt my masculinity, I may be so inclined to chili-whack you to persuade you otherwise.

I know I'm not a musical genius or anything, and my knowledge of theory is admittedly limited. So to just put one of my ideas that i'm writing around in sol fege... which is probably laughable to some of you... B major, do fa do li la. It can go about a billion directions and I want them all.

Also.. it does not yet feel like Christmas. I hope that kinda kicks in pretty soon.